This one was easy for me. You see, when Jacob passed away, the hospital staff took pictures of Jacob for me. They dressed him up in a little outfit, and took a few pictures of him posed. Those are pictures I will treasure forever. One picture is especially important to me, because Jacob was "holding" a heart charm. It's nothing over the top, just a little heart resting between his hands. I got that heart, and I wear it on a necklace. I have only taken it off once, and that was when my husband took it to get Jacob Bradley engraved on the back. And it was the longest 3 weeks of my life. Once I got it back, I would be visiting Juliet in the NICU and during kangaroo care, she would hold onto the heart. Even now, 2 years later, when she is sick or upset, she holds onto that heart as a way to comfort herself. And I cannot blame her, as I do the same thing. Brett knows when I am missing Jacob because my hands always finds its way to that heart. It's my link to Jacob. I get to hold something whenever I want, that he held too. I will always carry Jacob in my heart, and I will always wear "his heart" as a way to feel close to him.
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