Capture You Grief Day 1: Sunrise

Capture You Grief was started by another mother as a way to honor her child during the month of October. So many people know October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month, but it is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. As a way to remember Jacob, and all the others who have left this world before truly living, I will be taking part in Capture Your Grief and will be sharing them daily here.
Day 1: Sunrise
It seems fitting that the sunrise today was blocked by clouds. I truly love clouds, I actually love them more now. I feel the sun shines brighter when it is trying to break though them. Many mornings, I go out with the dogs and watch the sun rise. Its so peaceful. It reminds me of the peace that washed over me when Jacob died. It was not something that came from me. It was impossible to feel that level of peace by my own. God has answered a lot of prayers for me, but the one that I feel them most is this peace. Every time I see a sunrise, that peace washes over me again, and I can feel God holding me in his arms. When the sun finally breaks through and I feel those first few rays on my face, I know it's Jacob's way of saying he loves me. So I'll sit and watch the sunrise, every chance I get, just to feel God's arms, and Jacob's love.