Valentines Day

Today sucks. Everyone is off doing sweet things with their babies. Not only can I NOT spend the day with my son, this is also the day he was suppose to be born. February 14th, 2013 was my due date. I know I probably wouldn't have given birth on this day, but that is what is suppose to be. Instead, it is the day I base Juliet's development on, and the day that could have held so many different "what ifs". Its the day that SHOULD HAVE BEEN their birthday. Instead, its a day that I watch every other parent spend with their "little Valentine" making sweet snacks, crafts and the like, knowing I will never get to do that with my son. And yes I have other living children, and yes I love them and their little crafts and snacks, but I am still missing one. And that sucks. Trust me, there is something worse than not having a "Valentine"; its having a Valentine you cannot be with on Valentine's Day. So I'll send up a Valentine Balloon later today, and hope Jacob gets it. Jacob, you will always be "my little Valentine".